vicious

vicious I am. I only choose to hear what I want out of what you say. I remember.
things that you want me to forget. I want to hurt you.
so that you can feel me.
I decided to be quiet. I want to be inside your head.
manipulative, you say. no.
I'm just defending myself. the best I can.
there's never enough love, or enough best shit, or enough of you in my life. you can never satisfy my psychosis.
don't ask if it's best for us to just split. we won't.
don't ask if I have someone else. there's no one.
who can love me as much as you do.